I never would have thought that I would be saying this. Drew and I are having a hard time getting pregnant with number two. I know, I have never healed right after having Aidan. I never thought I would be thinking that Aidan might be our only child. I'm thankful and blessed to have Aidan in our life. Drew and I both believe that God sent Aidan to us to get us back on the right direction.
Growing up I had a passion for mission trips. I spent the majority of my teenage years on mission trips each summer. They weren't the one week trips they were all summer long far away from home without anyone I knew. I know mot people may not picture me starting conversations with strangers. I have hard time talking with my friends. I had a heart for the lost and helping others. God always lead to sign to a deaf or hard of hearing person. I would sign and help them hear the love of Jesus. They were always amazed that God, accepted them and loved them. If someone told you I became pregnant out of marriage. They would most likely laugh and say, your joking right. They would walk away in disbelief. I had a strong foundation. But, I let the world break me down.
I had a firm foundation with only the help of God. I relied on Him with every breath I took. He was and is my best friend. I was lonely has a teen, but God Himself brought me out of some tough times. Even though I spent summers away, at home, I was lonely. I remember those trips something transformed me. I became a different person. I recall those times with a smile and tears. You see, I think I have painted a good picture of who I once was before I came home from Africa. Coming home was culture shock. I went from having friends...to nothing. My one friend here at home changed. She didn't want anything to do with me. To this day, I really don't know what happened between us. We both said and done things I will forever regret. I lost a friend someone who I called my sister, my other half. I went through a very dark place. The darkest place, I have ever been in my life. During that dark time, I met Drew the love of my life and my best friend. He would tell you that I am not the person I was when we dated. We only knew each other for barely 6 months, before I became pregnant with Aidan. Now, Drew had become a Christian and Father and Husband. He has transformed so much that if someone saw him from high school or even family he hasn't seen in awhile they won't recognize him. I give ALL THE GLORY AND PRAISE TO GOD.
We went from not wanting children...to wanting a family. Now, that we have become parents. It's hard not to imagine not having anymore. I hope and pray that has we go down the path of fertility drugs and maybe seeing a fertility specialist along down the road that hopefully God would bless us with more children. Were praying and trusting in Him. At times, I almost feel selfish for wanting more. I know some friends are struggling with getting pregnant and adoption. Drew has even said that we can adopt one day if we truly can't have any more. I ask for prayers for direction for our family. This little family has had a rough start, we are stronger together more than we have ever been.
Sincerely, \
Vanessa Cannon
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